Today is the first day of the next chapter.
How has this happened?
In a blink of an eye 3 years have flown,
Although I anticipated this day long before it arrived, was I emotionally prepared? No.
Dressed in your smart albeit slightly loose uniform my heart skips a beat. As we walked hand in hand out the door, you insisted on taking your Helicopter, Aeroplane and Elephant puppet. To be fair you would’ve taken a lot more given half the chance.
All went well until I tried to say goodbye, seeing your tears broke me. I waited until you’re reassured before walking away but I won’t go far.
As I sit outside your school, wishing I could see what’s happening inside I come to the realisation that you’ve never been with anyone except your Baa or me, for longer than a couple of hours. But here I am leaving you in the care of people that I know nothing about, an environment that you’re unfamiliar with.
Will they know if you’re sad, lonely or hurt? Will they understand your stories and songs? The way you quietly observe before showing your personality? Will they understand your cheekiness?
Will you tell anyone if someone is unkind? More importantly, will you be kind?
I’m not sure how the schooling system sits with me but I just want to give you the best of whatever is available.
I have tried to set you the best foundation and do it all with you, from baby groups to play dates, Sign classes to sport classes, day trips to mini breaks, cosy home days to adventures and now you’ll learn from someone new.
To know that you’ll spend 5 days a week, around 52 weeks a year with someone new fills me with an indescribable feeling.
A tiny, delicate baby that I once held in my arms and now taking your first step into the big wide world.
Stay grounded my child but fly high. The world is yours.
I love you my little Sher, to all of the planets and back. Yes all of them. 🙂